distress

it's raining. my laptop has a virus. my ex boyfriend has my stuff. i have been taking antibiotics for over three weeks, and shh.. don't tell, but i think there is still something wrong with me. i applied for health insurance, but i wonder if i can hold out for another month. if it goes through, it will be in the beginning of may. until then..


whatever i have is never enough, never ever enough. but hush.. crush your youthful spirit. grow up. even when i am with someone i am still.. it doesn't matter.


somehow i am 24. at this age my mom already had her first baby. and i have my first white hair.


i can read and watch and listen to escape. but i always end up right back here.
it's fine.
i'm fine.